I feel like such a retard. I shouldn’t even have asked you if u wanted to go with me. I shouldn’t have even thought you liked me. Sigh. =( Cause it’s obvious you don’t. Maybe it seems like I like Him. I don’t we are just like good friends he’s like my older brother. Wow. I just feel like crying. I just wish you would at least text me. Or reply to my damn texts. I know your older. But idk what it is I just crave for your attention, your flirts, your smiles. Even though your not the hottest guy around. I just wish we could bond/ talk. But unfortunately after like next next week. We prolly won’t even see each other or talk to each other anymore. Which I’m okay with but I just wish you would notice me. You like only notice once in a while. Is it cause I’m not as pretty as her? Or not outgoing, cute or what?? Or maybe you don’t really like anyone in particular your just flirty. I don’t even know why I’m soo hung up over this. It’s just your attention I want YOU To notice me. Not her, or him or whoever. Just you. Only you To fight for my attention To always want To sit next to me. Idk what to say. N thus is actually a bad tine cause. Me and the other “Him” are not doing so good. So I guess I’m not even in my best place. Ohh I just feel soo stupid. I’m speechless.